141/365

WHAT I WANT IS WHAT I'VE NOT GOT AND WHAT I NEED IS ALL AROUND ME

Did you see this lady in Oklahoma that found her dog during a live news interview? I'm a little upset about the reporter not throwing her microphone down and helping her dig out her dog when you can clearly hear her saying "help me" but it's a heartwarming story nonetheless. Goes to show that what you are looking for is often right there in front of you.

140/365

LEAPING LIZARDS
There was this creature at the pet store that seemed to take a liking to me.

He did not want his friend looking in my direction and did everything possible to stop him.

Every time the other guy would come over to say hello he would jump on top of him and try to knock him down.  I felt terrible. Look at the hands on this thing!

139/365

LOVE STORY
I often have PTSD symptoms when I watch a home, wedding or baby program on tv. We watched a marathon of wedding ones on Lizzie's surgery day - that was the longest I was able to get through a bunch of them... it's hard to not think of your own when you see shows like that. I was thinking about that Pinterest pin about nailing the box shut and opening it on your first fight and reading the love notes you put in there on why you got married in the first place and then all would be well in the world.  I found a bunch of things I don't know what to do with... do I nail them shut in a box never to be opened again?  When do memories become meaningless? Especially when they meant so much not too long ago... I don't know the answer yet - for me, at least. I've gotten some suggestions - shred the shit... throw it away...burn it!  I'm planning my next wedding on Pinterest... those mason jar invites!?  Come on - they have ME written all over them!  I know it's never going to happen and it's just in my imagination - give me some burlap, a whisky barrel and some reclaimed lumber, though... I'll throw you one hell of a party.

138/365

WE ALL SCREAM FOR ICE SCREAM
It was one of Janel's first days at work so we decided to spring The Glo-worm out of the joint and take her out for a little bit. She was beyond thrilled. She also was beyond out of it... She told Cara that she thought Janel would do well there and wondered if her mom was going to work for her... she somehow got it in her head and believes that Janel owns the place. ;-)

137/365

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME!
My surgery was one year ago today!  Guess what I did to celebrate...

I had a mammogram!  Do I know how to party or what?!? ;-)  It didn't really dawn on me when I made the appointment and then I realized 517 - my address at Cedarbrook - and thought wait a minute...  it's a year.  I paid out of pocket to do a 3D mammogram in addition to the normal one... of course they had to bring me back for an ultrasound as well... and then the radiologist comes in and tells me she wants me to go for an MRI because mammograms and ultrasounds are essentially useless for me.  If it wasn't for the BSGI last year they probably wouldn't have caught this in the first place.  I'm just kind of over all of this and want to be done but I guess that's not going to happen. After all of this why couldn't I have just gotten the all clear and had a year to breathe like the three other people that were all there for their mammograms?!?

We talked about Miss Angelina and all that's going on with that.  Personally, I don't care what she does... I think women can make their own decisions as to what is right for them but I'm concerned about promoting the genetic testing when it's not really available or necessary for everyone.  You have to have a strong family history and many other factors for them to consider it...FYI - BRCA1 and BRCA2 positives account for 4% of all breast cancers. Still a worthwhile test and I'm fortunate to have had it done but I think people need to know it's not for the general population.

Pre-show today was a followup with my radiation oncologist - my boobs were all over town today!   Check out my numbers.

Don't be jealous.  WTF? And that's on medication!

If you think you are having a bad day take a look at this video Soul Pancake featured... it's a little long but worth it. Amazing boy and amazing friends and family that show that you don't have to lose yourself when you take care of others. Go Shane!

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DON'T DIG YOUR GRAVE WITH YOUR OWN KNIFE AND FORK
I made The Dad go to a nutrition class tonight at Giant Eagle... it's 10 weeks long.  I don't think he got that concept until mid way through the class when he kind of came to the realization and blurted out  (not in an inside voice) - you mean this isn't just tonight?

To honor the evening and get off to a good start, after class we went to pretty much my least favorite restaurant in the world - Olive Garden.  I think he was being nostalgic because the three of us used to go there on occasion after the nutritionist years ago. Healthy huh?

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TALK OF THE TOWN
I think I mentioned before that I named the newsletter for the apartment building real estate company when I lived in at Penn State.   They were The Downtown Group - my entry was "Talk of the Town." I got a ticket to Cancun for that...

Hey 1991...

Anyway, I was looking up apartments in State College and found this one In Cedarbrook... a Millennium Two Bedroom.  It has a little kitchen island and everything!

No balcony though. ;-(  Rent - $2686 a month! Looks like the prices went up a little from when I was there!